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Osrin, you fucking idiot.

Not again.  I can't do this again.  I walked away because I can't do this . People die  when I think I can help and I can't .  Alandras never--.  Alandras was a nightmare in his own way. Literally and figuratively. And that was enough to break me.  But he never actually forced me to do anything.  He probably would have buried me in guilt if I did nothing, but-... I had a choice. I had control of my actions, which, even if I wanted  needed  more help at least I wasn't a puppet. A tool.  وعاء. I can't do this again. I get that-... I get that bringing someone back is a... good. thing. I do. I get that. But. I'd already fucked up enough times before: seeing my friends fall and not being able to do fuck-all to help them. And then this-... And then I get that unbearable second-chance when I  should have gone down and I can actually help at least one  of my friends stay standing and... I literally get forced to run the opposite direct...